LA rapper Andre Johnson, who is known to fans as Christ Bearer, has explained why he chopped off his manhood during a party, and then jumped off a second-floor balcony in 2014.
The Wu-Tang Clan-affiliated rapper who rose to notoriety after carrying out the act said that he took the extreme measure because he felt that his penis was out of control, and that his “interactions” with women had been “callous.”
He said, “At the back of my mind, my issues were eating me. I was thinking my interaction with women have been just callous, no moral code.”
“I said I will fix this problem that is causing me so much misery. That’s when I think the insanity kicked in. I said, ‘Yo, my dick is outta control. I need a vasectomy.”
And then he went on to perform the “vasectomy” on himself.
“I just jumped up, outta nowhere and I went to the kitchen,” he said.
“I grabbed a knife and, bam, I pulled down my pants and” – he mimes a chopping motion – “that quick”.
Describing his unusual action, he told the BBC3 that though doctors were unable to reattach the severed part of his penis after a life-saving surgery, that doesn’t mean that he can’t have sex.
“When I’m actually having the act of sex, it’s not like, ‘Oh I wish I still had my penis. It’s like, I’m in there. Like it used to be,” he said.
Andre was hospitalised after the incident and diagnosed with having suffered a period of severe depression. He was later referred to a psychiatrist.
He believes attitudes around mental health need to change, especially among young, black men in the hip-hop community.