Gwen Stefani bared her all in Harper’s Bazaar August Issue where she opened up about her divorce from Gavin Rossdale after he cheated on her with her children’s nanny in February 2015.
The pop queen dished out on her lowest points during her divorce and finding love again with Blake Shelton, who was also coming out of an ended marriage.
Stefani revealed she had amazing parents, who have been together for 50 years and saw her parents love as something desirable. But that didn’t happen for her as her 14-year marriage ended, leading her to what she called the lowest point in her life.
“My dreams were shattered,” she revealed to Harper. “All I wanted my whole life was to have babies, be married, like what my parents have. Then I remember thinking,’There’s gotta be a reason for this.’ Of course you go through the ‘Why me?’ and feel sorry for yourself. But then I was like, ‘No, this happened to me already and I made something good out of it,’ and that was Tragic Kingdom.”
Sharing custody custody of their three children, Kingston Rossdale, Zuma Rossdale and Apollo Rossdale was also pretty hard on her as she tried to figure out what exactly on earth she had done wrong to deserve such pain. “What?! What did I do?” Stefani queried.
She admittedly compared her life after the discovery of her husband’s infidelity to a living hell, “It was the beginning of hell. Like six, seven, eight months of torture, trying to figure out this big secret.”
While calling prayer the antidote that saw her through the darkest period of her life, Gwen Stefani said, “That’s my childhood, that’s how I was raised. And I think I strayed from that. But you know when it gets that bad, you just get desperate? You’re on your knees.
Around June 2015 she began writing again and slowly recorded the single “This Is What the Truth Feels Like”.
Gwen Stefani recounted, “I had spent a lot of years not being confident about my songwriting. But I know that’s all I had left, and that was my gift. I had read somewhere if you don’t have gratitude and confidence in what you’ve been given, you’re nowhere.”
Her confessional album “Used to Love You” which was inspired by the end of her marriage was written only a few weeks before the single came out last October. Ironically, the album became Stefani’s first number-one solo hit.
On her relationship with Blake Shelton, the mother-of-three said, “It was just like everything flipped. It went from horrible to, like, hopeful and, like, ‘Wow, God, you just don’t know what’s gonna happen next. It’s crazy the support and love I’ve felt. Life is such a weird. I mean, I can’t believe I’m number one on a country chart.”
Only good things come to those who believe.