Times may be hard for Charlie Boy, as the eccentric Area Fada has reportedly come out to declare that he’s financially troubled.
In an article posted on MetroNaija allegedly written by Charlie Boy titled “Escape From The Wilderness”, he talks in full length about his current situation and more.
Read it below.
Does anyone know how I really feel right now? So alone and empty, God! how I feel the pain. If you’re in the wilderness like me, then you know it can be insane. Here, my eyes are bleeding tears and my smiles are protecting my fears. I can’t even go around and fake happy, because I’m in stagnation and it is hitting me from all directions. There is this disturbing feeling that time is passing me by, yet I’m paralyzed, I can’t move and I can’t think too far.
At nights I can’t sleep too easy, my heart is sore and my mind perpetually clustered with things that leave me shaking. Oh!!! God why? I have prayed I have fasted but nothing has changed, it’s almost a year now.
My dreams are nothing but nightmares of all the negatives in this wilderness. What’s happening to me? Look at me, I have always enjoyed comforting and giving directions to people in pain, right now I can’t even save myself and I have refused to take my own pills.Na so life be? On top of all of this, I’m so f…..king broke it’s a shame.
No! It’s not just that I’m low in cash, but most importantly, it is about being in this state of helplessness, I’m not too proud to ask anyone for favour, but who will believe I need financial help when they have put me on such a high pedestal.
Wow, is this a case of Grace to Grass? Who would guess I’m dying slowly when all they can see is my biceps and triceps. I have always been the joy giver, I have put smiles on millions of faces and have inspired and motivated an army of youths, yet I can’t seem to talk myself out of this rot, out of this wilderness,hummmmm!! Why won’t this feeling of hopelessness leave me alone, I know I can do more than I’m doing for now, I know I deserve more.
Too many times I have asked God, why me, why do I have to go through this wilderness. I am hardworking, forward looking, positive thinking, so why do I have to suffer like this. Is it the system or is it me, what the heck is this dark cloud that has come over me.
I no longer look forward to tomorrow or getting out of my bed, because a new day comes without hope. Nothing seems to make sense anymore; nothing around me inspires me again.
I feel like I’m vegetating, I feel as if I I’m glued to this limbo, with no hope of an escape. Now I’m hugging myself, not sharing myself with my loved ones because I am suddenly taking out my frustrations on the people around me. Oh! Lord I must take control of my life; again, I must escape from this wilderness.Does this sound a bit or a lot like your story right now? Are you in that dark place in your life, where everything more or less seems to be grinding to a halt and you don’t know what to do? Well, it happens to the best of us.
I have learnt that in all things, one should give thanks. Most of the time we are not entirely grateful for what we possess, because we always believe that we need more than we have right now. If this is the case, we will continue to need more.
This cycle will perpetuate as long as our mind believes it’s true. If we focus on what we have and not what we lack, we will always have enough, because it will always be enough. Yes, it is hard to stay cool when things are not sitting right, the way we would like in our lives. We are the ones who lose in the end, if we lose the lesson. Shey you dey feel my yarn? In this wilderness I have learnt that a rich man is not someone who has the most, but someone who needs the least.
Yesooooooo!!!!! I’m sharing all this with you so I can feel lighter. We will always have problems, often tested by circumstances outside our control, but we certainly can control our reaction to those situations. We have the power because our inner world (cause) affects the influence we allow the outer world (effect) to have on us. Being in the wilderness is always a result of anxiety about the uncertain future. So, let’s stop and ask ourselves.
“What’s the specific uncertainty that is causing you to be afraid” once you have identified that uncertainty, it is usually easier to simply accept its presence in your life, just for the time being. I know that life is about the journey and not the arrival. We don’t need to arrive if we accept that we are already there. Not everyone woke up this morning and not everyone is going to bed tonight. Life has no guarantees; every minute we are living is a blessing that has to be experienced in the moment. It’s not always easy, but it’s always an option or a choice.
May be it’s time for him to run to master Jesus.
Get well soon Charly Boy.