This is just a short contribution from Chidinma.
Five months and 17days ago, I had a plan.
I had come up with a rough albeit clear blueprint of what my year would look like. I felt alive and strong enough to conquer the world…my world.
Then the year started in earnest…and procrastination my old enemy came visiting.
Before I knew it, deadlines were lost and major plans went awry.
Just about the same time, my inner man took a battering from a confused and weak flesh and my self-esteem went hiking.
Oh Yes! It did.
Now, I do not profess being stable all the time…I mean, I have my emotional lows and highs like most normal people do and striking a balance, is what I need to gift myself this year.
To get to this place where I can freely give to myself, I need to let go of a lot of people.
-The ones who have been there, never adding neither do they deduct from me. I have to leave behind.
-So too, those who constantly drain me of my energy source. They are those who take me for a court jester and turn to me for laughs only. I need you not on this new path.
Simply because, I do not believe in the friends for life theory.
I am sorry, but that right there is BS!
You see, most people/friends come into your life for a reason and they walk away when their work is done. Simple! Shikena. FIN!
There is no need rushing to rekindle a kinship that has run it’s course all in the name of being friends.
Of Me and Myself
What I need to learn this year is the ability to forgive.
By this, I mean I need to learn to stop berating myself for mistakes long gone and truly forgive me. This is the only way I can finally grow…to the place i know i should be.
I must let go of the past and the pains and walk with a new spring in my step.
I must let go of this need to hide behind incessant chats and face my fears.
But most especially, I must learn to be whole in the best possible manner.
Living the way I do is sometimes tiring.
And in case you never guessed, I am flawed. Perfectly flawed in a way that only I can understand.
Of Present Times
So today, as I turn 18 yet again, I have decided to gift myself with the very best this new year.
– Better choices.
– Forgiveness, in it’s purest form (forgetting the hurt).
-Faith that sees a green light, even though the world is screaming red.
Happy Birthday To Me.